I'm having a hard time letting go of the fantasy of getting pregnant on our own at home. When I do think about it and let it sink in, I get really depressed and lost. So, I haven't really dealt with it. I was in UT visiting my family for the first bit and then came home and was busy with stuff here. Yesterday I didn't have much to do and wound up moping all day. Hubby was sweet and got me flowers when he came home from work. But I don't feel like he was really invested in this anyway, so he doesn't understand how I feel.
Today I'm going back to work after a long break. We have a busy day planned with a play date and staying out all day. I'm hoping I can get out of this funk. Tomorrow isn't as busy, but I'll still be at work 1/2 the day. Saturday, I have an all-day/all-night bachelorette party to go to. I REALLY don't feel like socializing, but it's for my best friend and I can't not go. She doesn't know that we ttc this last cycle yet... I haven't wanted to tell her until after her wedding reception. ARGH! Plus, I'm at the ovulatory part of my cycle and it just makes me sick to think of the little egg being wasted...
I need to snap out of this.
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