2WW Crazies

I had forgotten (sort of) that I go insane during the 2ww. This go around I seem to be a bit better in some ways (I've avoided peeing on a stick so far) but worse in others. I am afraid the following will impact the baby from implanting:
*coughing
*slouching
*too tight pants
*speed bumps/dips in the road
*exercise in any form
*hot showers (even warm- I took a luke warm/cold one today!)
*sex
*lifting anything over 5 lbs.
Today my new obsession was my mood. I wondered why I was being irritated by everything the kids did. It didn't make sense. I started to worry that I'm already PMSing at 4 DPO. It's freaking me out. On the way home from work I turned on the baby playlist (the only thing I've listened to since sperming up) and gave the baby a pep-talk about implanting. I hope/pray/need this baby to implant, stick and grow. It's so hard waiting to find out. I successfully went into the grocery store and didn't buy a HPT. I walked down the aisle and glanced at them but didn't buy one. Mainly because it wasn't the brand I like. I hope I can hold out on purchasing a HPT until Saturday. It seems sooooo far away!