Acupuncture

I love my new acupuncturist. (I've been seeing her for almost a year now) She is wonderful. She is very passionate about her work and I'm constantly learning new things to help me be healthy. I saw her yesterday and told her the good news that we have a Dr & clinic. She is ecstatic. I love that she is positive and happy for us. I found out that she just had a D & C after a 10 week pg. I feel for her, especially since this is her 4th miscarriage, but she seemed to be handling it well. I hope that her time for pg comes soon as does mine. My treatment yesterday was focusing on my liver pulse (again) and the hormone points in my ear as they are out-of-whack thanks to the clomid. As a bonus she did some reflexology on my feet while N's needles were "processing." I feel so much better and balanced every time after I see her. I'm blessed to have found her.

Timing

I'm a planner. I have most of my day planned at the time I wake up. I have plans for the week and for the month. This whole IF stuff always throws my plans out the window. I wonder if that is part of the reason (if there is one) why I've had to go through IF... to help me not to stress about plans.

My newest planning obsession is the timing for our IVF cycle. I want a definite timeline so that I have a "plan" to present to my employers and that they can then decide if they want to work with me and get me the time off or if it will be time for me to leave my job.

Dr. Opie told us that there would be 1 appointment at the beginning of the cycle- CD 3 U/S & BW. He said there would be 10-12 appts during the stimming part of the cycle for more BW & U/S. I would have 1 appointment to simulate egg transfer and then have the ER itself and ET. On both the ER and ET days he suggested taking it easy. He also suggested I take it easy- no lifting, etc a few days after ET. He also said something along the lines of, "you want to take the 2ww easy. You don't want to look back and wonder if you did something that prevented implantation." With this being our only shot at IVF I'm inclined to take the entire 2ww easy... flat on my back in bed. But... I'm jumping ahead of myself. Perhaps by then I can calm myself and my "plans" down and just go with the flow.... I'm so happy I have acupuncture this weekend. Dr. T will be able to help me de-stress.

Mixed Happiness

I have some very good friends that have been ttc for over a year. They became pg in September and I'm very happy for them. They did at home DICI's and struggled through them as we have in the past. We found out last night that the baby is a girl. I'm so happy for them! I know they will be wonderful mother's and they will love, cherish and help this little girl grow into a wonderful woman. At the same time I have a tiny bit of me that is jealous of their happiness. It's an ugly part of me to be sure, and I'm able to squash it most times... but it is still there. I can't wait to get together with them and congratulate them in person. They are wonderful women and truly deserving of all this happiness.

Hair Cuts

Last night hubby and I went and got our hair cut. It has been about 5 months since I got it cut and it feels so much better now. I had it cut in such a way that it can grow out nicely and I can go a long time again between cuts. This is just another way I'm attempting to save every penny to move on with IVF. Hubby got his cut much shorter than he normally does and it looks great! I think we now look presentable enough for my grandmother's upcoming 90th birthday party. I can't believe it is so close! Only 8 days until we are on a plane to UT.

Update

I've left my last nanny family and was unemployed for about 6 weeks. I'm working with a new family that is 5 blocks from home. The children are 2 girls aged: 4 & 2. The hours are similar to my old position, but the pay and appreciation are better.
We've decided to bite the bullet and move on with IVF. We met with a Dr./clinic recommended by one of DH's co-workers. We really like Dr. Opie (that's what we call him since we can't figure out how to say his last name and have asked too many times). He gave us a 70% chance of IVF working. I just had a CCT done and all hormone levels are normal so I'm ok to wait 6 months on the IVF. The plan is now to save money like crazy, lose more weight, continue acupuncture to keep my liver function up and shoot for IVF start date in August. I have to have the HSG test repeated and have a SHG done before IVF. The plan is to get those done in June/July. Also, in June/July I need to sit down with my employers and figure out if they can work with me or if I'll be unemployed again.
I'm feeling really hopeful. We met with the financial counselor at the clinic and found out that all of the embryology fees can be charged to DH's $15,000 lifetime max insurance coverage which will cut $5,000-6,000 off our total bill. Woo-hoo!