Yesterday I returned to work. It's good to be back. I've been taking it easy and enjoying my time with the kiddos. I was there all of 30 minutes when the oldest had to tell me all the "wrong" things the other two temp nannies did. :) Adorable. The little one kept patting my arm and kissing me. I think she was trying to make sure I was real. :)
After work (it was a short day) I took it easy. DH and I went to the bookstore as I wanted to look for a pregnancy journal. I found a cute one called the "Belly Book" which is nice, but not exactly what I wanted. I got it anyway, as it has a great week to week place to put belly pictures. The ones I saw were more about the medical aspect and I'm interested more in DH and I having a place to write down our feelings about the pregnancy/baby/becoming parents as well as put pictures and some medical stuff.
Work today was my first long day back. It went well. The biggest issue I'm having is that I am exhausted. I fell asleep with the oldest one this AM when she woke up early and I was putting her back to bed. I woke up when the little one did, so no harm done. AND my employers have specifically told me to nap and rest as needed. (They are the best!) At nap time I slept again for about 15-20 minutes, which was nice.
The other issue I'm having is with my pants. With 3 IVFs under my belt, my pants are not fitting. I lost a bunch of weight over the past 2 years and have gotten rid of all my bigger pants. I'm regretting that. I have two pairs of cords that fit ok, and then one pair of my bigger pants that I saved, and they are way too big on me. The only thing that is comfortable and fits is a pair of sweatpants, but I feel like a slob wearing that to work. I don't know what to do. I am still very bloated from the IVF (I don't think it's the pregnancy that is making stuff not fit- not this early anyway) and don't really want to get maternity stuff just yet. Any ideas?
The reality of our miracle is slowly settling in. It's still very difficult for me to accept congratulations from anyone about the pregnancy. I am starting to calm down a bit. The nightmares have stopped (I was having horrible dreams about miscarrying all weekend) and I don't have a panic attack every time I have to use the bathroom worrying about if there will be blood. I have good moments and bad. I'm hoping that once we see the little on the ultrasound, I'll feel a bit better. I'm so grateful that we've made it this far. The Lord has truly blessed my little family.
2 comments:
Use a hair tie to wrap around your button hole and then go around your button. I did this for a couple weeks. Then I just bought 1 pair of maternity jeans and some maternity sweats. I was the same stage as you. I was SO MUCH MORE COMFY once I did ;)
Good idea about the hair tie. I'll have to try that.
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