Back to Work

I went back to work today. It was a good choice. It was good to see the little girls and spend time with them. The oldest is just getting over a cold and the little one was super sick, but very loving and happy to see me. Apparently, she threw a MASSIVE tantrum yesterday AM when the temp arrived and demanded that I show up. It's nice to know I'm wanted. I spent the morning doing Christmas crafts with the girls: coloring, shrinky dink necklaces and magic color change ornaments. Their mom then took the oldest with her to drop off the gifts for the family they adopted. They brought lunch back with them and then I put the kids down to sleep. I was able to talk with my boss after the kids were down for nap. It was nice to know how sorry they are for us and to know how much they love us.

The other good thing today was that I was able to see a psychologist. I had scheduled an appointment with her for tomorrow but found out that wouldn't work with my work scheduled. I called today to reschedule, and she told me she had a cancellation. I was able to go in and talk with her. It was good to have someone who is familiar with miscarriages/infertility/loss (her specialty- she was actually a midwife before going back to school for this) to talk with and sort through what I am feeling. I go back to see her in January (she's closed for the holidays) and I'm bringing DH with me.

DH was home when I got home and had picked up the mail. We had two nice cards: one from my acupuncturist one from our friends. My parents also left us a clean house (always nice) a note and a fruit basket. It was good to talk to the psychologist too about my reluctance to accept help from my family and friends. She was able to help me see that I'm not ruining the holidays for everyone and that it's ok to accept help from my family and friends right now.