Trying to shake the despondancy

I'm having a hard time relating to real life. I feel like I'm in a dream most days. DH is great, very loving and taking over household stuff I don't feel like doing. Work has been an uphill battle with the little one asserting her 2-year-old-ness. Church has been hard to connect at too. I'm having difficulty feeling close to God. I'm feeling a bit abandoned. My church work has been blah. The upcoming children's program will undoubtedly be a mess, but I really don't care at this point.

The medicine for the next cycle arrived yesterday. It's sitting in the fridge just waiting for me to use it.

I saw 2 of my best friends this weekend. One was celebrating her birthday, and it was good to see her and the other came over to our place for dinner. She brought her lovely wife and my adorable niece with her. Holding baby A, it hit me really hard. It was adorable watching DH with her. He was so loving, caring and patient. She is a wonderful baby and I'm so happy for my friends. I just hope we'll have one of our own in the next year for her to play with.

I was able to watch my girlfriend get married via web this weekend as well. She called on Sunday and it was good to hear from her and know that she is happily married.

I haven't done much of anything exercise wise. I've been eating healthy and worked out twice. I'm planning on doing some yoga today. My acupuncturist recommended that I do 20-30 minutes of deep breathing/meditation. She thinks that it will help me get out of this funk and be more beneficial weight-loss wise than just exercising. I hope so. I can't imagine putting on 15-20 more lbs. with the next cycle.