14w3d

I'm officially (by every way of counting) in the 2nd trimester. :) I'm glad that we are past the scary miscarriage time, but I'm still a nervous nelly about every twinge. I don't usually think of myself as unable to tolerate pain and discomfort, but man I've been hurting lately. I wonder if it is usual pregnancy stuff or specifically twin pregnancy stuff that is going on and hurting. In any case, by the end of the day I'm usually wiped out and my back and abdomen are super sore and painful. Other than the random pain, I'm doing well. I'm still tired, but I think that is to be expected. The food issues are slowly going away and I'm able to eat more food than before. I am concerned that I didn't gain my 1 lb. a week last week (lost 2) but hopefully the 1 lb. a week is the average and I'll make up for it this week or the next.

Going public was really bizarre and is still hard for me on many levels. Everyone has been great. All of the responses have been supportive. I've had many intrusive questions asked (to be expected with twins I suppose) and have started figuring out how much to tell the general public and how to respond. I'm not planning on hiding the fact that we did IVF or donor sperm, but that is our children's story to tell and not ours. Those that are close to us will know and have been told, but as for the rest.... I don't think they need to know all of our details. I have had a couple of random freak-outs about telling people. For some reason my brain associates people knowing with something bad happening to the babies. I'm trying to work through it, but it's very hard to be public for that reason. I guess I'm just a private person and having the attention on me is harder than I anticipated.

The babies have been harder to find with the doppler lately. I will find a heartbeat only to have the baby move away and have to find it again. I swear my belly grew overnight last night. I went to bed and felt pretty normal sized and then noticed today after naptime that my belly seemed/felt HUGE. I guess those babies are growing and growing and pushing out my belly. The bad thing with them growing is that my pre-baby cushion (that was in my belly area) is now being pushed up on top of my belly, so I have 2 bumps! ARGH. Hopefully soon it will even out into a respectable baby bump instead of a baby bump with a muffin top.

Baby house preparations are moving along. Our contractor was scheduled to come tomorrow to install our new washer/dryer hook ups but has now moved the date to Friday. The office was decluttered (thanks to my sister) this past weekend and all that is left is to move the guest room furniture to her house. We have picked out our new washer and dryer and the paint for two of the rooms. I'm having a hard time picking paint for the baby room. Project wise- I've picked up fabric for the baby quilts. I'll post pictures soon. One quilt is green with white and the other is orange with brown.