Short List

With this next IVF cycle right around the corner DH and I have decided we probably need to figure out what sperm we'll be "adopting" for our IVF cycle. We are clients of a bank in a nearby state that our RE recommended. We've done the legwork to reactivate our account and now we need to pick our donor. I browsed the donor list right before our last IVF cycle and found a few that would be a good match. But the thing is, I already picked who I wanted to be the father of my child- my DH. Unfortunately, the cards we were dealt won't allow that so now we're onto plan B. We've told a select group of friends/family and plan on telling our child. However, we want our child to be able to choose whom they tell and when. With that in mind the donor's appearance needs to match mine and my DH's. So, the criteria I'm using to come up with a short list of donors for DH to pick from are: eye color, hair color, skin tone, height and weight. A match of DH's blood type would be great, but not necessary.

So, this afternoon I grabbed a cup of hot herbal tea (yes, it's cold here now- which is a great relief after last week's heat wave) and pulled up our bank's website. The front page had a new banner on it that read "Donor Look-A-Likes: Have you ever wondered if your favorite donor looks like anyone famous?" Umm... no!?! I then enter the pertinent criteria and start browsing the list. I click on a donor profile and there alongside the medical info/physical appearance info is a list of 3 celebrities the donor looks like. Now, I'm a bit freaked out. I call DH and fill him in. He starts laughing and then tells me that this is a good tool for us to narrow down our choices. He figures that they (the bank employees) submit the donor's picture into a tool/website that uses facial characteristics to match them to famous people. This could be a tool that helps us find someone that looks kind of like us. Hmm... ok, maybe that will work. But it's weird to think that "oh my baby will look like a cross of Hugh Grant and Rainn Wilson." Strange!! But I plan on having a short list to DH by the end of the weekend.

On another front: I'm an emotional wreck. I'm stressed about my appointment tomorrow morning. I'm terrified that there won't be enough antral follicles again. I'm praying that all will go smoothly and I'm praying for peace in my heart. I hope I'll be relieved and happy after the appointment tomorrow and not a mess.